Going Deeper (Inside Strange Men)

This is a post with some really complicated feelings. There's race play in here. Quite a bit of it. There's not a lot of actual racist language, but there's considerable discussion about my growing up with some racially charged situations, and the beautiful boy who introduced me to race play as a BDSM concept, and how I have come to understand this very taboo niche experience. I know that some people find this so offensive that they can't even consider it as a role play option. It's frowned upon in many corners of the BDSM-sphere. A well-educated porn performer I talked to said it would be considered "radioactive," like something you don't post because it would tank your Twitter. And, it might have tanked mine... but it's hard to tell if it was the language or the aggressive chokey fucking. They were both right up and down the line, even when I obscured the language with software. So. There's this boy. I first ran into him a few years ago - I h...

This evening is another lesson in how the best laid plans are only an estimate - a fantasy - of what will happen once you are really there. I've been chatting with this beautiful submissive boy. I've played with him once before, looking down into his liquid brown eyes as he sucked my cock, trying unsuccessfully to penetrate his beautiful tight hole. We had a good time. This time, though, he's wanting a really intense scene - spanking, blindfolds, some very intense racial/ethnic language, a pill bottle full of frozen semen, sharing him around with other white cocks. He's Indian, and although the issues are different than they are for other races in this part of Texas, they're still big, scary issues.  We negotiate carefully - what he can handle, how specifically things should be phrased. He gives me word lists and suggestions for things to do with his body. He gives me three lists: one of things he likes, one of hard-limit things that he doesn't want to do, and o...