Going Deeper (Inside Strange Men)

This is the story of what happened Tuesday. This is a record that is often incomplete- and frequently deliberately vague in certain circumstances. Also, by the way, just FYI I sometimes cuss at my dictation software. It pisses me off and the language helps. But if you see something like "you damned machine," it's because I've had to respell the same word three times because it keeps picking up something that seems like something most people would say as opposed to something that I end up wanting to say. It keeps hearing things like "a million" when I've clearly said "Vermilion." It's a pigment made from mercury. I haven't made my own but I have friends who have. I have made several pigments of my own in addition to doing a lot of dying of silk using chemical dyes. I've written articles. There's a different blog. But I had a terrible emotional crash that ended up resulting in basically a mild psychotic break in 2013, that part of...

This... wow. Umm.  It started, with watching Puppy Davey's glowing throat-fuck videos. If you haven't seen them, you can see just a snippet here  on his X account. I got kind of fascinated. I looked to see if I could find any commercial options - there's one called " Glowjob ," which I really thought hard about titling this post after - but I didn't use their product, and I don't want to use their marketing term.  As I so often do, I got the idea stuck in my brain. There's got to be a way. There's got to be a way *I can do.* I started looking at various products - I really wanted to be sure I was using something safe to have in your mouth, and in your throat, even if it's not intended for that purpose. So about 99% of the paints and colors are ruled out - it's got to be listed as being at least "safe for use in eye shadow," which is a higher standard than "Ok for skin use" - but ideally, something safe for food would be ...

I picked the title for this one because, FUCK, I had more than I probably should have. It was like a Thanksgiving feast of orgasms. I don't even KNOW how many times I ejaculated. I'm serious. Sometimes it gets hard to count between "Ok, are we going to call that a minute-long orgasm with one major and one minor squirty writhing peak, or do we count that as two?" So often, if somebody's milking my prostate while working my cock, you'll get multiple rolling peaks, between the ones that squirt and the ones that ooze. It's like one of those Churrascaria-style Brazilian restaurants where they keep coming up and saying sweet things like "More leg of lamb?" and I just have to have another bite, because you know he brought it back JUST for me. Plus, I get to eye-fuck him as he walks away in those cute pants, and I can smell him as he leans in to cut the sliver of delicious baby sheep. Anyway. I'm not even trying at this point. I have the good side, o...

This is a little different from the usual content... but for me, cutting my hair (or having it cut) is a stimming thing, and the sensation of all that vibration and buzzing is like making out with a velvet wand. Plus, once I'm done (and showered. LIKE IMMEDIATELY) then it's awesome to stim with the hair itself - my hair is thick but fine, which means that there are a lot of little strands, but each strand is not very thick. The ones in the beard and sideburns are thick. But by managing which parts are really short, and which parts are longer, and which parts get clipped down to a #0 guard and which get the #000 blade... I can build on my face the equivalent of one of those four-sided graters where you can do six different textures depending on where you hold your carrot. This is fuzzy. That is velvety-prickly. That feels scrubby. Ouch, that bit's sharp. I eat ass with my whole sensual palette. Or is that palate? Kinda both. But not pallet, because I worked warehouse, and th...

  OK.  I've substantially edited, and I'm going to post it as a new draft and trash the old one. Something in the original tripped a filter with the censors.  This is mostly a long series of chats with Patty, the hottie in the videos in this. I'm going to edit some for clarity and to 'splain - but I'm going to keep it mostly just chats. Patty is the kinky Sister I mentioned in [see also:   Jimmy's First Alpha Read ] She's a sexy kinky submissive fuck. I'm going to drop in chunks of the video at a time - which is usually how I have this conversation with a guy, explaining the video of how I've fucked him. Is that meta enough for you? So, literally, as he's finishing up at his cleanout, I'm sitting at the bath house, texting him about how I like to play, how I intend to work him over, and sending him video of me showing my implements in my room. Get it? They mix between, but in the version I sent to him, there's some side conversation that ...