Tryptich with Votive Statue

This entry is skipped one place out of line. The conversation with the same friend immediately before this text, was the portion of text about the gumjob. So that part of the conversation came up and knelt down in front of me this week... and I'm going to just leave this into gossiping-to-gay-pervy-friend fomat, with some interposed video. One of the things I love about the blog forum, is being able to say, "You know what? Today is going to be Haiku Day. Fucking deal. 

Give me all your breath. 

Surrender your throat; submit -

Let me fuck your soul. 

It doesn't always have to be exactly the same narrative voice and the same expository formula. It can be stylistic experiments. I can write and have fun and be weird. 

"And another pervy fascinated idea... but I'll probably have video of this one within a couple of weeks, because it's (a) easy, and (b) I can talk guys into this, I'm sure... "I want you to be the Whitehead gag for me. I want you to hold him open... put your fingers on his teeth, so that you open him for me, and keep him from biting my dick. A little wider, please. There you go." and (c) I just saw that one on a different popperbate video by same popperbate video guy, whose work I like

And from the realm of things I have to do to a bottom on video soon, and you'll totally get all the twisted reasons why, and you're one of the few who probably gets most of my personal dread and emptiness, from a perspective of a confidante.  It's there, for blog readers, in a lot of the meta-fuckstory, but I don't know how many of them read, and how many of them treat it like the old joke about fucking a fat chick... roll her in flour and go for the wet bit. Like, I don't know how many just skim the entry for the videos. And I keep being (so far, vainly) hopeful that some weird technical thing is gonna get picked up by some porn star and they do a thing I say, or say a thing I said, or quote something, and it gets some notoriety. That's what I keep hoping happens. ANYWAY. I'm watching this popperbate video. And I keep thinking... you don't see a lot, even on these clips collections, of guys really eroticizing the actual poppers. Like doing them together. Shotgunning them through a cloth. I have NEVER seen that in a mainstream video, and it's SO FUCKING HOT to do, and it's the same fucking drug that you're sniffing out of a bottle, it doesn't make it druggier to put it on a rag... but I haven't seen that except for doing it with guys. And it's fucking AWESOME. And I want to shotgun poppers with some guy, really deep, so that he's totally fucked up, and impale him on my dick... and then talk about how it feels, like I'm floating and kind of vibrating all over, and I can feel him sucking at the center of me, like a straw drawing up the center of a puddle, because the poppers make my body vibrate... and they're a mild hallucinogen for me. So through my closed eyes, everything is a shining lotus, engraved in interlace like Celtic knotwork, amber and gold, shimmering... and explaining all this, as the guy is gasping and spluttering and starting to go into deep panic on my cock. Then, let him up for one gulp, and re-sheathe my cock, and continue... and, the panic sensations make his throat spasm on my cock, little shivering waves, each time his body arches, another one. I got video of THAT last night. Two different guys.

But... I want to get a guy that I can just hold until he's starting... to... fade... and then let him gasp back to OK. A guy who wants to play with that game, on camera. It actually happened once last night, but I don't know if I'll get that video, because we used his camera. He said he might be able to let me use some of it, but he's concerned about his job... and I totally get that. I respect it. But I could see my fucking COCK BULGE UP HIS ESOPHAGUS. I dislocated his trachea with my thumb, and got video of where I was palpating the head of my cock traversing behind his larynx. I could feel him trying to breathe; his epiglottis was sharp, almost like a fish's fin, against the back of the shaft just above my glans. When he did that I gagged him harder so it would shut down again.

But FUCK it was a hot night. The first guy... was the guy I had fucked in the throat at the Eagle a couple of weeks ago. Joey. He's a super sweet submissive cubby Latino muscle guy. He introduced himself to me saying that I could rough him up however I liked, and he let me take punches on his muscular chest, reddening and warming up the muscles. So... THAT guy is the one who was the first hour of my adventures this week. Jeez, I'm like multiple sit-and-write sessions behind; I need to do more writing. Anyway. He joined me to flesh out the things we had basically started that evening at the Eagle... we both wanted more throat time, we both wanted more BDSM and spanking, and we both wanted me to fuck him. So we had sympatico from the start... we were good to go. I was having fun the whole time. He was having fun... I think pretty much the whole time. I think there were moments that pushed where he thought he was going to go that night, but I think they were places he wanted to go and was glad he went.

So I have like forty minutes or so of me doing various things to him... starting with touching him gently-then-firmly while he's in a vulnerable position curled upward on his back, while negotiating a consent conversation... to fucking him in the throat and holding him until he was bucking. (newfavoritethings)

This is the negotiation. I think negotiation is hot, in general... it's so vulnerable, 

so emotional. I make them do it naked and exposed. 

The best way to fit this half hour long file on here, is going to be chunks. 

It all happened in one long half-hour of video. 

I fuck his throat some more, and then his ass. I talk about spanking, 

and how it changes his energy. The cute Black boy 

comes in and agrees to take video for me. It helps, to be able to use both hands. 

And then, he sucks my dick too. 

And then so as I was kind of getting to the point with that first boy that I was ready to, open the door, take him for a walk, do something different... this sweet submissive cute little Black boy with locks comes in, and just joins right in. And we had a quick consent conversation, and he's cool with being filmed. But when he hops up in the bed and presents his ass, and tells me it's not clean... um, sweetie, I get way more of that than I want, at the best of times. I appreciate the offer, but thank you, no. So I spank him a little, because, DAMN, it's a pretty butt, and I send him on his way so I can take an actual lap of the place. And... I find Joey, because he had told me he wanted to drink my piss in the shower, and I need to piss, and HAD needed to piss for a while, because I had been like half-pissing so that I didn't NEED to pee, I wouldn't fucking PISS MYSELF, but I still had, you know, enough to be able to piss because we had talked about it. Anyway... so I grabbed him, we did that. It was FUN. He apparently wanted a shower and some time in the pool after - I don't know if it's not a thing he's done much of. He sucked it right down at the start, like a champion, though. Sadly, he decided that he doesn't feel comfortable with having this video on here - and that's a consent thing, and I honor it. 

Then, there was the second, amazingly beautiful submissive boy... and he's the one who only let me make video with HIS camera... and holy fuck, I hope he decides I get to have some of that footage, because things like the way my cock visibly bulged his esophagus, the way his hands were shackled behind him as I fucked him in the throat... but it's up to his discretion, and he's discreet with his job. So. We'll see what I get if any that I'm allowed to publish... or maybe that I'll just be allowed to look at and write lurid prose about. Because, DAMN, he was foiiiine. He's got this beautiful alabaster body, and a complexion that I'm not sure if it's Arabic or a particular version of Latino or what. His name hints at Brazil, but that's just a quick internet search. He has hips almost like what I think of as "Egyptian Boy" - like an absolutely beautiful, but almost feminine, shapely ass. Like pert, plump, perfect round buttocks. I don't mean to imply that I find this in ANY way unattractive - holy FUCK he's pretty, and I adored fucking every inch of him... and the things I could do to his throat, especially with him on his back, were Biblical. My flesh sundered his flesh, and he cleaved unto me. I fucked him in the throat so many ways... on his knees, on his back, on his belly, on all fours. At one point I was holding the camera with one hand, and his throat with the other, and just fucking into it and holding there to watch his legs begin to dance. He could go REALLY far into the panic. Like, he looked like he was gonna have a seizure. It was fucking BEAUTIFUL. And I probably won't have access to it for the blog... but, I know it happened. Maybe I can make some AI program Rotascope it or something, and de-identify him. But, the thing is... I know I can do it. I know I'm aware of the process as it's occurring.

And.... I have finally, after MUCH masturbation, OMG, the penile calluses... the vibrator burns... I'm finally locating the REALLY freaky porn stuff that just turns my crank... either that, or that's where I'm at this week... :shrug: Just seems like I feel like I'm kind of... making a mark I'm proud of. Doing the weird shit. Getting it. 

Wow. That was a lot of modifiers, EVEN considering the fact that I'm stoned. Well. You can see where my brain is. I feel like I have to condition my pride in my authorship, because (a) "The shit you write will never amount to anything and nobody really gives a shit about it," (the voices in my head), (b) You know, this kind of writing, is essentially ALSO masturbation... with a keyboard. And you're hoping, you're HOPING, you fucking PERVERT, that your little pixels on the page will engrain themselves into someone's memory, that your meme of weird unusual sex and having so much sensual sexual autistic weirdo fun with it... will literally MODIFY THEIR PROTEINS... because anything you remember, is coded in protein. Anything in your memory, is made from the idea, and then your encoding of the idea. You give me the fertile attention of your mind... and I inseminate you with my ideas. I put them ALL the way down your throat, so that they become part of you without you even having the need, OR the option, to swallow... and I hold my cock deep in you until you gag, so you can taste it in the back of your mouth. And in everything you eat for the next couple of hours. You're lucky I'm fucking delicious.

Anyway. He had somebody who literally tore up his ass a few days ago, so it was unfuckable... I got to fuck his throat, and from the front it was almost impossible to avoid his teeth - I should have put the gag on him, I bet he would have... anyway, he choked on my dick, he made gargling noises, he looked into the camera so we could see the change in his eyes when the CO2 level hits OMGWTF... it was some HOT footage, if you're into this shit. Like, I got some quality imagery of him, and he's as beautiful as the first guy. Holy crap, I'm a lucky dude. 

I DID, however, get some more of that, with ANOTHER guy who just stopped, knelt down, SUCKED MY DICK IN THE MAZE, and went back to my room with me. He's 52, just 2 years younger than me, but built stocky-muscular - his body is obviously the result of a lot of gym time. And he's just as obviously put in time getting his sexual skills honed. 

We didn't have a lot of conversation aside from what you see on the video, so I'll let that speak for itself for a bit... 

This was a fun moment - he picked up the double-headed dildo, 

and I fucked his throat with it some... and then met him in the middle. 

And after all of this... I haven't cum, and I feel like there's still some prowl left. I walk through a lap. There's this absolutely beautiful guy - he looks like a fitness model - I've been watching him for a while. Some extraordinary looking men end up at the baths, and it always helps to keep in mind that their interests are not always just for what you'd think. You may end up with a hot muscle dude who has a fetish for back freckles. So my policy is... shoot your shot. Make your interest obvious, but not creepy. He's getting ready to leave his room, and I stand and frankly watch him wrap his towel around his waist and pick up his key. He comes up to me in the hallway, and I reach out and touch him. I ask if he'd like to come to my room; he says yes. OMG. I squee a little. I mean, I find every one of the men I've played with tonight beautiful. I think I'm OK looking myself. This guy... would sell exercise equipment. We get to my room, and I explain how I made video earlier, and that it's available as an option.. but he declines. He asks what I like to do; I start listing off - I like to get my dick sucked, I like to suck dick; I like to fuck, and get fucked; I like to spank, and although not as much, to get spanked... he says, "How about, you suck my dick, and I fuck you." Um, yes, please. And, because of course he does, he's got this beautiful big dick to go along with the rest. I kneel down and work to get him hard, and then lie down with my head hanging off the bed and let him fuck into my throat. After a little of this, he's ready to fuck, and I flip around and put my feet on his chest. I explain that I haven't been fucked tonight, so he takes it at least a little slow for a few seconds... and then he starts letting the ponies run. Good lord. This man power-fucks my ass; I hold my thighs back; I squeeze with my hole, as I feel him breaching the second one up inside - then I put my ankles on his shoulders and pull down, tightening my pelvic floor. He pants, and keeps slamming into me. I hear a juicy, squelching sound, and I realize that he's shot so much jizz that it's splorching out of my ass and making a puddle on the floor. I laugh, saying I wasn't sure for a second if that sound was all right; he says he just cums a lot. Well, NOW I'm ready to clean up, wash the semen off my thighs, mop up the floor, and go home. Whew.