The Dominant's Pendulum

 This is basically a weird sex TED talk about what I love and jerk off to, and why, and how I feel about it. I'm exhausted, that orgasm and the subsequent video editing have taken a LOT out of me... so I'm just going to post two big chunks of video here and a shorter one, and then I'll come back and address the actual narrative later. I'm also going to include some videos with a hot boy named @PuptOtis, because I haven't gotten around to going through the entire long videos of that hot encounter and blurring his face, because I've just got the Twitter versions... so that's what you're gonna see; A series of tweet-length blurred videos of me fucking this boy, and it kind of shows how he bends to my will, with a very deliberate series of practiced moves - mostly a thing I think of as the Dominant's Pendulum. You make the guy feel safe, you connect as a human being, and you show him that you trust him, and give him cause to trust you You push him into hypercapnia and physiological panic... BUT, and this is the thing where I disagree with a lot of doms - I let them hang out there, until they either tap out (this is the correct answer), pass out, or throw up. One of those two things is going to happen, and you don't always get to choose, and sometimes it's one and then the other. I expect you to tap out every time. I expect to see you struggle with it every time. RIGHT at that edge - that place where you're shaking and trembling and feeling little shocks of electric nerve response arcing across parts of your body like a lightning storm, because I'm shutting down your oxygen with my cock - and it's a fucking BEAUTIFUL submission. And what really, really amazes me, is I just keep running into HOT guys who will just let me do EVERYTHING. They'll let me take them by the hand and down the garden path, because, yeah, I saw that in a porn video, and I thought it was hot. I tell you - you're waving the hypnotist's watch. Scary place... safe place. Good boy. Here, let me pet your head, and you can breathe for three breaths. Now back on it. This is the fun place... and then... his face starts to darken, the veins pop forward, and you can see the scary place... and then the REALLY scary place, blossom in his eyes. I love getting video of the eyes. It's a true shame that you don't get to see this boy's, because they are both soulful and pretty. And his struggle dances across his features like he's Jim Carey. I don't mean that he's comical - but his features dance intensely, and I wish I could show you that, but you'll just have to imagine. 

I'm going to paste in more videos as I go, but publish with just the first one. So if you get a version of this post that only has one video, in a feed or something... check out the actual website. 

The guy I'm talking about who let me fuck the puke out of him... it's detailed at length in another post [see also: Gifted]. He's a massage therapist. No, I won't give you his number. No, he probably won't do this for you. 

So that's the long, talk portion of the evening... and the next part, where I finally pull together all that energy, and use a stainless steel Njoy pure wand, and I'm not selling them ad space, I'm providing that as a resource - there are also some very good knock-off ones that you can get on Ebay. I keep the nice one at home. If I meet a hot guy who shows me that he knows how to use it to make my head explode, and seems to like this particular tool.... I keep the knock-off inexpensive ones to hand out, and in case I lose it at the bath house. I would say just be sure the listing CONFIRMS that it's 18/8 stainless, and that it's the right dimensions in millimeters, which are listed at the NJoy site. 

And then this... the slow-mo version. I like the way the cum squirts, and the noises. 

Then, these are the videos with @pup_Otis 

More praise, less degradation - I'm checking in with him, negotiating. Safe space. You are heard and believed. I see you there. Open yourself to me. I wanna fuck you in the soul. 

I stand up and kneel him down, and fuck his throat

I fuck him in the throat, and then introduce the concept of Consensual Non-Consent. Where he taps, and I keep going. We just do it a couple of times. I LOVE a struggle throatfuck. 

For whoever is flagging my videos for content rule violations - I have no idea what particular problem you're having. I'm guessing that somebody is reporting every video, and they're just pulling down ones they find some shade of an issue with. I make a careful and deliberate point of including the consent conversations with the videos, so that you can see me modeling consensual kink. This isn't violence; it's not hate speech. If I'm using any kind of degrading or hateful language, it's been negotiated with my scene partner, and we are using it as part of a psychodrama play experience. If you don't ever allow someone you like to use those words in play - they are solely under the control of people who actually hate you.